Thursday, January 14, 2010

Ashley Nova Heffington

September 1, 2000 to January 12, 2010

Her life was way to short and the pain of her death will be with us for all of our lives. I remember the day she was born. I had a dermatologist appointment at in the Xi med building right next to Scrips La Jolla and I was looking out the window when the doctor came in. I told her that my boyfriend's sister was in labor and having a baby today across the way. I could see the hospital from the window. I was so excited! I remember visiting the next day and seeing her sweet face. I remember going to their house a few days later and Cindy would not let me hold Ashley. She loved her so much. I remember buying her pretty things like the precious moments figuring for her first birthday. I remember that a 21 month old Ashley would not walk down the isle at our wedding and that Diana had to carry her. I remember the day Cindy called me and asked me to watch Ashley because her water had broken and she went to have Taylor. I remember having her at our little house in OB one afternoon and I had taken her to the farmers market and when we came back to our house she threw up all over the living room floor. I was so scared that I did something to her (she was about 3 and she also puked all over my little Honda civic). I remember that she helped me open all of my gifts at the baby shower Leslie Hanna had for me before Lilly was born. I remember how happy she was that Lilly was a girl and that she wanted to feed her. I think that her relationship with Lilly is what makes me the most sad. My Lilly adored Ashley. Ashley was such an amazing role model for Lilly. I will write more soon - right now my eyes are to filled with tears.

6 comments:

Janis said...

Oh, Zoe, I'm so sad for you and your family. She was a beautiful little girl and sounds like such a sweet one as well. Your girls will always have their own special angel watching over them. Our prayers are with you all still.

Nat said...

Zoe I ache for you and your family. Such a beautiful girl and wonderful stories- may they comfort you as you work through this. You are in my prayers.

♥ Mommy ♥ to R & R said...

Still, and always, thinking of your family, as you get through this heart-breaking loss together. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to ease your stress during this time of grief. HUGS to you all.

Teresa Shea said...

I can't stop thinking about you and your family Zoe. I think that documenting your memories of sweet Ashley is a wonderful idea. You all remain in my prayers.

Connie said...

Zoe you are an awesome little lady and Ashely was great to have had you for an aunt. I am always here. Just remember the "white birds".

danielle said...

Zoe,

I am so sorry for all of the pain your family is going through. May you find some peace and comfort from all the love and prayers surrounding you. Thinking of you daily. Praying for you.