My job is not glamerous and in the last 24 hours I have been covered in and cleaned up more vomit then I care to remember. But, as I look at my sleeping babies (you know Lilly is sick when she naps) I know that this is where I need to be. With them - taking care of them. I was up most of the night with Lilly - it breaks my heart to see her sick. She asked for a bath at 2:30am - so there I sat rubbing her back and washing her hair at 2:30 in the morning. The thing that is most important to me is that my girls know that I am here for them and I believe that they know that. Like I said my job is not glamorous - I have done 8 loads of laundry in the last 48 hours and I am OK with that. I am fine with the fact that I have given up having the material luxuries that I once had. We still have more then what we need. Right now I am the best gift that I can give them.
I am grateful...
To be home with my girls - even thought I have moments that are very tough (and make me want to go back to work)
That my mom brought me everything I need to take care of my sick babies (so that I did not have to leave the house)
To John for sleeping with Anna and taking care of her last night so that I could care for Lilly
5 years ago